No, you don't lose the soul. A more accurate way of saying that is the innocence is gone and you can never go back to who you thought you were before the experience. You can't un-see the blood, the screams, the sheer insanity and ugliness of it all. THAT changes you whether you are seeking change or not. The innocence is indeed gone.
But once you overcome all these things you are a better, bigger, more capable soul. Literally operating on a higher frequency than most. To be deliberately ignorant is no longer possible. Your capacity for compassion and empathy for you fellow man grows. Real, genuine love is now capable to flow through you. Instead of frustration that the average person can't understand you develop more compassion for them knowing they've been lied to also for their entire life. As well as 3-4 generations of mass poisoning affecting their thinking capabilities.
That's why "they" don't like us, why "they" try their best to eliminate us, why "they" have no workable answers to help the vets. "They" know we can see now and the last thing they want is someone who is wide awake and physically pure with no drugs or chemicals affecting the critical thinking apparatus. (And why chemical detox is number one on the recovery list).
The only drawback, and I'm sure you're aware of this, is that it isolates you from most of society. Thus a social life is all but impossible.
But even so I'm still here. Getting old and a bit tired from all the wars but still here just the same. Looking forward to going home. Back to my hometown that was so great before war happened to me.
Thanks for posting my response.