Just identifying this is a breakthrough. Thus the practice of meditation must first deal with simple mind chatter. With that out of the way it becomes possible to access your conspicuousness or the independent consciousness of your spirit body. That is its own adventure that separates you from been driven by the physical mind responding to the senses.
All this demands practice. Yet a graceful huiman being can emerge from this. The subject of this piece was a victim of a pedophile ring who uniquely survived and is a natural witness to that depravity.
Sutra Journal: what is the Liberation Prison yoga project? Can you tell us how it came about?
Anneke Lucas: Liberation Prison Yoga is a non-profit organization bringing trauma-informed yoga to incarcerated populations, and trains yoga instructors to serve inside prisons.
In 2010, James Fox, the founder of the Prison Yoga Project, asked me to find a space in New York so that he could train his yoga teachers. I did, and feeling responsible for the space, I ended up helping to organize the training. By the end, the participants looked to me for guidance as to what the next steps might be. By then I knew there was no organized effort in New York to help yoga teachers go into the prisons, so I began teaching incarcerated women at Bayview Correctional and men at Rikers, and brought in others who had trained with Fox. This became the Prison Yoga Project New York, which grew very quickly, serving six facilities. Running the programs became a full-time volunteer job, so I started Liberation Prison Yoga in 2014.
Sutra Journal: Where and when did you ﬁrst encounter or discover Yoga? Can you tell us a little bit about your background, early experiences? How has Yoga changed something in you, or allowed you to see the world in a different way, perhaps?
Anneke Lucas: In 1993, living in Los Angeles, I read Autobiography of a Yogi and started attending meditations and services in temples that the author, Paramahanasa Yogananda, had built there.
In my late teens, before I left Belgium, I had taken stretching and strengthening classes in a dance studio, without being interested in dance. I liked the movements and continued to practice those exercises on my own after I moved out of the country. I had sustained severe injuries being tortured just before being rescued from the network at the age of eleven. I walked purposefully, to hide a limp from being stabbed in the back of my left knee. I was sworn to secrecy about anything regarding the network, and either way, I felt much too ashamed to ever speak up about how I received the injury, afﬂicted by a massive guilt complex in trying to make sense of the abuse.
At school, I had done all sports offered, and noticed that athletics helped me to walk without limping. When I began doing yoga, I realized the dancer’s exercises had been the closest I had found to yoga; it was as though I had been looking for a yoga practice my whole life. The yoga, especially ashtanga, was the miracle cure that enabled me to work through all the issues that arose from the past injuries, and maintain an extra healthy, youthful body.
Sutra Journal: What attracted you to working in prisons? What are your observations on the effects of Yoga after working many years with traumatized individuals and/or sex trafﬁcking survivors?
Anneke Lucas: I didn’t mean to go teach yoga in prisons, but the moment I set foot inside, I felt right at home. I was once a prisoner too. I also have been treated as the lowest of the low. I have also been treated as though I were evil.
Students have reported that they felt they were changing because of the groups, that they were able to create space for their feelings, and as a result could muster the will to stop with drugs, which are of course available inside. I’ve heard powerful reports. In some instances I’ve been able to stay connected with students after they were released from jail, and am witness to their continued growth in their circumstances that embrace yoga as a living philosophy – not necessarily the physical practice.
She immediately felt that yoga was helping her, then started walking with one cane, then none, and she continues to come to class every week. More often we hear about mental beneﬁts.
Students report they can accept themselves better now, and that they are better able to cope with prison life. Some students practice yoga every day in their cell.
Anneke Lucas: Yoga informs my life, and affects every single aspect. Paramahansa Yogananda has written extensive commentary on the Bhagavad Gita, and I am well aware that the ﬁeld of Kurukshetra is before me every moment of my life, and that I have free will. I have studied the Yoga Sutras and the Sutras of the Saṃkya system, but I and the other teachers at Liberation Prison Yoga do not teach any philosophy unless we get specific questions – and that happens sometimes. What we do as teachers is make sure that we are mindful of the Yamas and Niyamas in our own lives and as we enter the prison.
We are not there to teach, but to share and to serve. We are not there to rehabilitate, but to help students discover that they are already perfect.
I have heard my own message of self-acceptance, and have been able to allow my anger to exist. I can observe my impulse to unleash it, and have worked to control that impulse with the very tools I teach. Service has helped me grow tremendously, and it remains the key to my happiness.
Sutra Journal: Do you have any advice for people who may be going through an overwhelming personal crisis in their lives? How did you put the past behind you? How were you able to live positively?
Anneke Lucas: Overwhelming personal crises are tremendous opportunities for spiritual growth. Is there anything that matters more than the spiritual life, in the end? We want to be prepared for death – and I don’t mean that in a morbid way, but with the knowledge that life doesn’t end when we leave the physical body. All the great tests in life help us to know more deeply that we are not the body, and that the more we realize this, the stronger we are. If we were to trace every fear that we have down to its root, we’d ﬁnd that it is some variation on the fear of death – of our own or our loved one’s bodies. The awareness that life is a school, and that the greater the lesson, the greater the resultant beneﬁt – we need to be reminded of this when the struggle seems too great to bear.
We can’t judge anyone’s life from the outside. The Holocaust, for example, had many people believing that God cannot exist. But on a personal level, we have no idea what each person who died or lived through this experience went through. My childhood experience was of that magnitude, and I can honestly say that I would not want it do be different, because the insights I have received give me everything I needed for my particular spiritual journey.
I’m not saying that I would wish anyone else to go through to suffering I went through, including my abusers, but that we can only speak for ourselves.
There is no spiritual bypass. It’s a process, and we can do whatever we need to do to remind us of its eventual beneﬁt – even if that seems impossible in the moment. If we can embrace the challenge and truly heal, we will never have to go through that particular suffering again. That’s the karmic law.
Anneke Lucas: Yoga itself offers the broadest possible context for suffering, which is very helpful when you’re in the midst of it. The physical yoga practice has many recorded mental health beneﬁts, as medical and academic studies have shown.
The only reason trauma-informed yoga is more helpful is because of its approach. It is the same, physical, yoga practice offered in a kind, respectful, accessible way, and maximized so that the participant can take advantage of all the beneﬁts.
Anneke Lucas: One of the wonderful things that emerges from my work in developing these trauma-informed practices - adding other healing modalities, focusing on conscious self-awareness – is that it’s obvious that everyone stands to beneﬁt from being taught yoga in this manner. There is no reason why yoga should be taught by barking commands at students like a drill sergeant. False gurus stand to beneﬁt from controlling students to cover over their hidden purpose of greed and selﬁsh aggrandizement, yet we all know that yoga is about self-empowerment, self-development, and that it is a personal journey.
Sutra Journal: Can you recommend some books that have made an impact on you and changed the way you see the world?
- Autobiography of a Yogi – Paramahansa Yogananda (SRF publication)
- The Holy Science – Swami Sri Yukteswar
- Mass Incarceration in the Age of Colorblindness - Michelle Alexander